It just hit me. Yesterday morning I booked a plane ticket to Japan on March 4th, 2019. I was so overwhelmed with excitement that the thought of playing professional soccer again next season didn’t even cross my mind, but that’s a good thing I think. Actually, that’s a great thing.
My life has always revolved around soccer. In fact, it is a large part of who I am today. It has introduced me to some of the most amazing people as well as provided a window into some amazing cultures. The stress of chasing that dream was worth every moment. Every tear, every practice, every game, and every goal.
I now feel ready to walk away with only gratitude and humility stored in my heart. I have a million favorite memories, but my the ones that stand out the most are the lengths that friends, family, and fans have traveled just to watch me play. The goals were amazing, the wins were unforgettable, but to me, those are the moments that will stay with me forever.
In pursuit of absolute happiness and new adventures, I’ve now been presented with the challenge of finding balance between doing what I love versus what I can afford. Recognizing what I need, contrary to what I want. Pursuing new goals in ways that are achievable, but not impractical. I want to be more selfish, but always mindful. Prioritize my safety, but take new risks. Change the world in ways that I can, but remain open to the ways that the world can change me. I want to be more trusting, but not naive. Rebellious, but respectful. Most importantly, find the right times to share my life and the lives of those around me, but know when to put the camera down. To live my life happy, and to live my life well.
I have no idea what’s going to happen next. All I know is that I want to create, I want to inspire, and I want to share the world as its beauty unfolds before my very eyes. Most of the time I feel like a compass without an arrow, but all I know is that if it makes me feel like a kid in a candy story, then that’s the direction I’m headed. The rest will fall into place.
Every message, every comment, every like, and every share never goes unnoticed or unappreciated. I am so grateful for the support system that I’ve had these past couple of years.
As always, you will be hearing from me soon,